![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() The Gambler A young lad of 1 with innocent eyes Had a naiveté-Never told lies Ran with the wrong group of peers “Do it, Do, it” is all he hears Took a gamble on his life He felt no pain or strife Now at 18, he rolls destiny’s dice Snake eyes-It’s over-Now pay the price 2/28/93 3:19 PM Her Black Wings The anger builds up in her heart and takes over her mind The love she felt for her victim was not of a normal kind He told her it was over-She vows to see him dead Who knows what’s going on in her head The pain in her soul didn’t compare to the fire in he eyes Everyone knew she wasn’t the type to tell lies One faithful night while he was with his new love Revenge was all she could think of She picked up a butcher knife-Chased him around About to take his life-He didn’t make a sound He grabs his revolver and shoots her to the floor Happy she’s dead-He couldn’t take anymore She’s up with the angles and all the good things Flying around in heaven on her black wings 4/3/93 1:57 PM I try so hard to be everything to everyone Trust me when I tell you that is no fun The perfect daughter, girlfriend, or friend When will it ever end? When I try no one gives a damn I’ve lost sight of who I am What do I like? How should I be? What is it that makes me ME? One day I will figure it all out That’s what growing up’s all about 10/3/99 7:20 PM I want back my childhood innocence It left me with my inexperience If only I could take back that one night Maybe then my life would be all right I’m tired of not being able to forget I’m tired of living with such regret I can’t turn back time and it’s going so fast I want to accept things from my past It’s hard, it’s hurting, but I want to be OK I just know I can’t go on this way I need to move on and I don’t know how The healing must start and it must start now I want to love myself again I want to get rid of this pain In time the pain’ll weaken but never go away Unfortunately in my head it will forever stay 10/3/99 7:47 PM My True Sister One may say a sister is a girl related by blood Someone you may have teased or played with in the mud Someone you shared a room with and saw grow As I get older I see that this isn’t so It’s someone who understands you-Knows your thoughts and fears A person you grow up with in heart rather than years We are sisters by choice, by love, and in mind The bond we share is the most special kind I say to you my sister I love ya more than words can say Our closeness is something that’ll never go astray 6/28/00 12:20 PM My Mask I wear a mask so I could hide There’s a smile on it when inside I’ve cried No one can see where the mask ends and I begin It covers me all the way to my chin I never take it off-I cannot be real Too afraid how others will feel So I took it off for this moment in time Once it goes back on I’ll be fine So when you meet me-Who do you see? Are you seeing the mask or is it me? 12/4/00 Hey all you tall people I have something to say The way you treat short people is not OK We’re tired of being pushes around and kicked by your boot Being referred at “shorty” or cute It’s time you spent more time looking towards the ground Because there are many of us and we do not make a sound Please remember, just like you, we were sent from above We may be half your size-That just means more of us to love 12/24/00 4:10 PM My world changed when I was 7-Doctors found something wrong A chromosomal difference I was gonna have to push along A childhood full of doctors who liked to prod and poke I thought that this was God's cruelest joke My world changed when I was 11-I no longer could grow Had to take shots-Prayed the scars wouldn't show After all the trouble-9 Inches was my gain I may still be short but it was worth the pain My world changed when I was 15-I became as happy as can be I finally met someone who was just like me Someone who understood me and knew what I was going through When I felt I was the only one-I now knew there were 2 My world changed when I was 18-I'll never been the same again It made me lose respect for myself and for men I cannot seem to forget it no matter how hard I try I still go on with my day and just get by Now at 25- My world changes even more Trying to get my life to where it was before I'm relearning to like myself and even smile God let my life be stable for awhile 1/27/01 Dear God...... I need some answers to my questions-I hope you do not mind I understand you are merciful, loving, and kind I believe you are there whenever we call There are just some things I do not comprehend at all Why is there so much hatred?-There’s nothing to gain Why is so much suffering?-People are in much pain Give me a sign that there is a reason for all this Some purpose for the hurt that I somehow miss Guess I am on my own-I’ll figure this out, I hope Till then give me the strength I need to cope AMEN! Jen Phillips 2/6/01 3:47 PM ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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